happy girl.

the thing of which i was so anxious about
flew to dallas from a very famous city.
just for me.
the obtainment of this said thing
was like a dream.
and i feel like i'm currently in a whirlwind.
which can be a very funny experience.

my excitement is still there
and i am glad for that.
it did not fade for one second.

i am a happy girl.

grey.

this is what i was thinking about this morning while getting ready:

isn't it funny how whenever we get excited about something
everything else just tends to lose color?
things that were so exciting and thrilling before
just seem dull and grey.
nothing will match up to it.
nothing compares.
nothing is complete until you attain this one thing
that you are so anxious about.

i love that.
i think the Lord made us that way on purpose.
he's funny like that.

for becki

this is for becki.

things i'm REAL tired of:

1. the scene.
2. not having enough hot dogs at the magnolia.
3. texas heat.

my gift

"My heart is overflowing with a good theme;
I recite my composition concerning the King;
My tongue is the pen of a ready writer." - Psalm 45:1

my heart is overflowing with many good themes.
i write my composition concerning my King.
my tongue is the pen of this ready writer.

a gift that has been given to me,
i return to Him with a heart like Hannah.
i hope [know] He will use it in me.

infestation

my office is currently infested with crickets.
every moment of every day,
i feel like i'm going to puke.
this is so disgusting.
they even fall from the ceiling.
i think it might be mating season too.
lots of noises happening.

i feel no guilt in killing them.
is that bad?

i think this all roots back to my childhood,
when daniel and jesse would throw crickets on me...
so cruel.