getting older

last night at the grocery store i was standing in line waiting and after reading all of the ridiculous tabloids about brittney spears and justin timberlake and how did star jones get so thin... i turned towards the candy. i would be lying if i didnt say that i was completely tempted to buy some bubble tape. does anyone remember that?? bubble tape was seriously the best gum in the world when i was approximately nine. i remember many a road trip of taking money from what me and my brothers called the "homie fund" and buying a minimum of three packages of bubble tape. all to be chewed by the time we reached ohio.

i've been thinking alot lately about getting older. i'm only 21, which may seem very old to some people and may seem very young to others, i go back and forth on the idea. lately though, i've felt like it was somewhat young. i feel like i should be atleast 23, right? well thats another idea for another day. the point is, as i'm preparing for this new stage in my life, i'm really excited about growing up. i'm actually looking forward to it! can you believe that? i, monica hopkins, am looking forward to growing up. that doesn't mean i have to become serious all the time and boring. i can still be fun and have fun. but, i'm looking forward to a different responsibility. a change in my life. i'm looking forward to being relieved of schoolwork and taking on the responsibility of paying my bills (and on time of course). it's not just those things that i'm looking forward to though. i'm excited about getting older. i feel like i'm just getting ready to take off and all of these experiences that i'm going to have are just before me. it's a rather encouraging and exciting thought, and i cant wait to see what God has in store for me. to use the words of death cab for cutie: "i can't wait to go grey"